Leong Boon Liang,

Sometimes u ask yourself. Do you deserve all these treatment people are giving you? The shoos and the shuns. The boos and the yees. U are really so irritating that everyone cant wait to chase you away from their sight? Are u really so revolting that pplr enjoy so much pointing fingers at you? Wait, actually people dont mean it u noe. But then its happening so often and u hear it so frequently that sumtimes u will ponder and think if its really true. U know u have a strong temperament and u can take it wif your stride and smile it past. But how long are u able to do that? Sumtimes the words are simple yet hurting. Do you really deserve all this? What have u done to make pplr do that to you? Are u the only one around that pplr dare to give this kind of attitude to, cz they know u are too kind to do anything. U know it really hurts when u always hear the same thing over and over again. Why cant u just tell them straight in the face that u dont like it if they say it all the time? Cz u dont hv the courage? Then what kind of a guy u are? A loser as branded by all? A wimp that lives his life according to other peoples demands? A gay hu is scared of everything? Then why are u still treating them so kindly? U have nver shown ur anger at anyone yet, u know u dont wan too, but it seems pplr are taking it for granted. They treat u the way they wan it to be, then they expect u to give in to them in times of their need? Izit really fair? Why other bigger size pplr dont receive such treatment? izit becz they are big? izit becz they are fragile at heart, or izit that pplr just like to bully u more than others? Why cant i be the one wif a fragile heart? I am already suffering so much distress, and people dont really see it. They think its fun to really add on to it. Hu really cared about how i feel? Hu really thot over what they were going to say and whether if it was gonna hurt ur feelings? No one cares. No one gives a damn anyway. Then why are u still thinking that everyone is sincere and true to you that it makes it worthwhile to even die for ur true frens. Then sumtimes u start to think if they are ur true frens anot. U might jump into the stakes for them, they might even push u down even. Then, what really is a life worth living for? Maybe changing ur behaviour might change for the better.If i were not the one today, wld the world be a better place?

{/11:10 PM}

Time's up.