okie i dunno when i hv the chance to blog again so i decide to blog now... dis few days hv been quite turbulent for me i guess... see i am at still at the lanshop at 1022pm roger... lolx... dis is getting crap... still hearing noobs screaming backstab backstab... jus finished playing a 4v5 game... quite an even game i guess even though it was 4v5... so the 5 didnt wrk quite well.... or the 4 which included me worked TOO well...lolx... aniwae... i used NA.. tham taught me how to use so i well... finally regained confidence in myself in Dota... which is bad... cux i nda study my phy and chem!...

I jus dont understand the two oldies at home... they are jus so damn darn dumb or selfish.... Traditional customary idiots.. When my wallet got one hole... they insisted dat i cant buy my own wallet... TMD.. den they give me all the wallet that WAS fashionable 20 YEARS ago... TMD... i said i wan to buy my own wallet after 16 years of my life... i hv not bought my own wallet... okie... TMD... so dis is wad happens... My father earns abt 2000plus close to 3000.. he cant afford to let his son buy his 1st own wallet worth onli 20plus bucks after 16 years of fucked up life... books from born till now... can take other pplr wan take as much as we can... clothes and shoes from young take other pplr wan also... pencil cases buy all the 3 dollars plus at those "shops", WIF THAT FUCKING MENTALITY... " Can use den use, buy what buy, waste money, why must u be such a spendthrift?! always follow ur rich cath high bastards all around, they buy branded u must also follow... den results cannot be as good as the rest... U go and ren4 another man as ur father la haiya...." TMD... DONT u think i dont wish? I am ur onli son leh! Cant i jus buy my own basic stuff? SO basic lyk wallet and clothes cannot even choose for myself? I calculate those things that i buy for myself...

1. 2 Caps ( 1 lost ) worth $60plus... okie i admit this is mad, here i know i am in the wrong....

2. 5-6 T-shirts worth $70plus... 1 Shirt $15...

3. Pants... ALL bought by my mum... okie but i hv to agree i quite lyk it so no complaints... BUT all bought at outram park or "Shops" so can expect no gd stuff....

4. Jeans or Long pants.... NONE BOUGHT BY MYSELF... ALL GIVEN BY OTHERS!!... And i onli hv two wearable ones... LOLX... FUCK....

5.sockx... none bought by myself... 3 for $10 kind... so can expect...

6.SHOES!! ONLI 2 pairs for a 16 year old? 2? one wear for around 2 years, one around haf a year... Converse worth $50, i forgot another ones name.. but cost $20... pathetic.. two pairs REM! bought by myself... the rest is given to others since the day i was born...

7. Hair... is cutting a hair $9 reasonable when i was cutting hair for $3 till sec 3... Tel me is dis reasonable bastards?

Above all... i tink my value for 16 years is onli worth 1000 dollars the most... If i could rem other stuff dat i bought for myself... Tel me... I suffered for 16 years lonely... Dat i donno hu to blame.. DEN CANT u at least treat ur ONLI son JUS A BIT BETTER!? He suffered at home and sch for 16 years... and u jus hv ur own fucking mentality dat belongs to 40 years ago to treat ur own son... AND PLS LA... I AM 16... the least i wish u to stop threatening wif the cane everytime... AGAIN... I AM 16... i still nd the... cane? i noe lata i go home i face the threat of the door being locked by the bicycle chain... i noe i noe... i am jus a pathetic animal... i dunno hu to blame.. myself? my frens? the traditional bastards? GOD?....... I tink its jus myself... cux i am jus so weak and irritating... i noe... FINGER TO EVERYONE... even though the act cool word wld be thrown at me once i say dis again... den FINGER 2 TIMES!...

dont feel lyk typing animore.. jus thot if there was anione hu could give the least care to me.... or i shld not even care abt myself...

"Men always seem not to be able to take off their mask.. Women always seem to wear abit too many maks.. As for me... I wear 2 porous ones... One to block myself from cruel insults being thrown, One is too fake my own feelings at times... The real one behind is www.asylummaniac.blogspot.com..." taken from the excerpt of "The Bastard's Son"

{/10:13 PM}

Time's up.